
Tonight I'm just depressed... I love Aiken it's great.. It's the perfect mixture of city and county and I really enjoy it here. I think I'd enjoy it more if I had friends here though.. The only friends we really have here is Amy and Eric our neighbors. They are really nice and we are about the same age. Tonight they had their friends from up where they are from visiting (they are from PA). Chris and I were watching a movie and I hear them outside laughing and I can't help but be extremely jealous. I miss having friends to hang out with and laugh with, not that anyone ever came to our apartment to hang out but still it was nice to be able to go out and be able to hang out with people. No one but my family (and only 2 times by them for short periods of time) has came to visit me, I barely hear from anyone unless I send a text message or a myspace comment/message. I might as well have moved to China.
I guess what has brought all of this on is that Chris is going to his parents house for the weekend while I stay here. I have to work both Saturday and Sunday so I'll be here alone, by myself with no one to talk to. Usually a time like this would be perfect timing for a girls night or just some friends hanging out. But not this time. I will be sitting here alone more than likely doing laundry and reading or watching TV.. It really sucks everyone's like "Oh you are going to have some time to relax" when in reality it's only going to make me sad and lonely. Chris is all I have to hang out with and talk to more times than not. So when I'm home alone as I am most of the time since I'm working evenings it just sucks. Sorry to be such a downer but it really just hit me tonight and has really made me depressed.. I'll be better tomorrow just have to try to deal with all this tonight..
